Survival

Well, I’m surviving through the Christmas season without any booze. I did a sneaky at the Board lunch today. In the end I decided to let the waiter pour me half a glass of wine so I didn’t feel the need to explain why I wasn’t drinking at this fancy restaurant when I’d ordered, what turned out to be, a beautiful piece of eye fillet.

I wasn’t even tempted to drink the wine. But now I sit here writing this post I do feel like it was such a waste not to have a stunning local red wine with my fabulous piece of meat.

But. I went for a short run after work and I don’t think I would have been able to do that if I’d had wine at lunchtime because I wouldn’t just have had one. If I’d had one, I’d want another delicious glass of glorious red wine. And maybe another.

I’m also very tired. I think it’s long work days which are making me feel so fatigued. Because I’m working hard in the lead up to going on holidays I can’t isolate whether it’s long work days or something else. 

In her book, the Sober Diaries, Clare Pooley talks about hitting the wall after day 40.

I read Clare’s book after I came across it on this webpage. There is a whole category of books called ‘Quit Lit’!

https://www.goodto.com/wellbeing/how-to-stop-drinking-alcohol-521760

Gosh what a book. Fantastic insight into someone else’s life as they gave up alcohol completely. For the ‘sober curious’ it’s a must read. As is her blog 

http://mummywasasecretdrinker.blogspot.com/

The wall is not about exhaustion, it’s about boredom and feeling bleugh. I’m not sure I feel like that exactly but I’m definitely tired. Bring on holidays!